Now that I have covered the fact that I don’t have much to say, and that I need to stop repeating the grab bag church words I am going to further decrease my prayer topic repertoire by getting into God’s will. Below is an excerpt from the Worship Journey blog titled “He’s Still God” by b/:
“I’m convinced that the purpose of prayer is not asking God to fix my problem but for me to be okay with the way God chooses to work. And yet, I don’t hear people praying like this. That is, saying something like, “God, if this works out completely different than what I want, then I’m okay with that. In fact, I am more than okay with it. It’s now exactly what I want.” What I do hear is, “Will You do this or fix that, or heal this, or do that?” and then you get the courtesy call, “but Your will be done.”’
I couldn’t have said it better myself. We talk a lot about the will of God, but I am afraid it is mostly when we want to conform His will to our will, and not the other way around. So we plead our case and hope that God’s will aligns with ours and if things don’t go our way perhaps we didn’t pray loud enough or long enough, or use big enough words. How about just saying “God, I want in…I don’t know what that means…but I want in on whatever you are doing.” Besides, I doubt you could ever put up a good enough argument to God that He would say, “You know, I never thought of it that way. Your will makes perfect sense to me now.”
This presents a problem with prayer as I have known it. If I am truly praying His will to be done, then my will has to align with His and not the other way around. All of a sudden some of those church words don’t fit as well as they used to (which is good, I guess) but now prayer is not so protected. It is unchartered and treacherous. My desire is His desire? What if He desires me to make “small talk” with a stranger? What if he desires me live in a third world country without “stuff”? What if He desires me to step out even further and put myself in harms way so that He can be glorified? But, you don’t understand God, I LIVE IN A CUL-DE-SAC! (I am pretty sure none of the apostles ever said that when God asked them to step outside themselves). I am safe here. I am comfortable in my will, with my beautiful wife, and my amazing son. To pray outside of my desires could possibly stretch my family and me across the tracks with the locomotive in sight. Am I ready for that? Are you? I would love your input if you are living that right now.